
Many years ago Tricia and I had the opportunity to live on a farm in Pennsylvania. We were doing so as
members of ELAN, the Christian music group for whom I was druimning.
Next to our house was a big timeworn barn where farm machinery and hay were kept. One hot, sticky August
day I got a chance to work in that barn putting up bales of hay. I learned quick into the experience that barn work
was riot part of the vision I had for my life. Wrong again, Señor!
I'm back working in a barn. well, more like at the Barn, the Covenant Presbyterian Church "Barn." For those of
you who have not vet heard, since January 1, 1999, I am officially on part-time staff at CPC as Director of the
Center for Renewal. Tricia and I have been directing this ministry for 10 years, leading Listening in Christ
retreats, and living at the Center with our faimily. We have done so as very motivated volunteer leaders.
During the course of the last 10 years, Klesis has also been offering its various ministries at the CFR, filling gradually more
time each week as it has grown. In the process, it became clear that doing some of that same ministry under the
auspices of Covenant Presbyterian Church made sense.
So, what will I be doing? My job description inclules 10 hours per week offering inner healing counseling and
spiritual direction to members and attenders of the church. I have the option of delegating some of those hours to Tricia if a
woman prefers to work with a female counselor. Presently, we have almost filled the 10 hours of counseling
time.
At this point, the remaining 10 hours are supposed to be busy with various meetings, and projects
related to the spiritual life of CPC. Pastor Don and I are finding our way as we go with those 10 hours.
Coming on staff appears to be a culmination of the work Jesus has done in and through Tricia and me
since we returned to Covenant in 1989. He has trained us in very specific ways of ministry to individuals
and groups, and we are well-fitted to the task by His grace.
Opportunities abound for this work, and we are beginning to catch a sense of what the next years will hold for
us here. With the CFR Support Team we are starting to look at new possibilities to extend the work we do into
CPC, and draw others in.
Even the CFR building is experiencing a kind of "re-tooling" as the upstairs apartment we have lived in
will be expanded to include a living room area, and kitchen. Eslie will come upstairs into what is
presently the "loft" area in the main bedroom. The loft will be made into two bedrooms. Alyn's room will
be turned into a kitchen/dining area, and she will move into one of those two new bedrooms as well.
Eslie's old bedroom downstairs will be turned back into Kit's counseling office. Dan's room will remain in
tact. Tricia will continue to counsel in the room we have been using.
Things will be a mess around here for a while as construction proceeds by stages into the sununer, so
please bear with us.

People come to counselors for all sorts of reasons. Many wait until the pain is unbearable, or until
someone forces them to go. Most of them are looking for the counselor to provide insight into how they can
get past what is troubling them. More than I'd like to admit are looking for the counselor to end the pain
much like an aspirin ends a headache.
Even the best counseling only works when the person coming for the help is deeply committed to doing what it
takes to get better. If the person is not resolved to do the work of healing, the most brilliant or anointed
counselor in the world will be virtually hamstrung.
A good illustration of this truth occurs when, for instance, a wile pressures her husband into joint
counseling. To appease her he goes, but has no real intention of looking hard into his soul to change. His body
is there in the session, but he is not. The same situation occurs when a person agrees to counseling to prove how
others are the problem. Being passively dishonest, or deflecting responsibility dooms the effort to failure most of
the time.
With that in mind, we have put together guidelines to help people decide to work at their part of the
counseling. Even if you are not engaged in counseling these principles work in any situation where you
need to take a clear look at your attitudes and behavior.

1. THE DECISION TO BE WELL
While Christian counseling and healing ultimately depend on the movement of the Holy Spirit, it is
also true that you have a crucial part to play in the process. You must commit to doing what it takes to heal and
get well. If your will is not substantially in the effort, no matter how skilled or diligent the counselor, you will
only go as far as you decide.
2. THE DECISION TO FACE PAIN
In the course of getting well you have to decide that you will face the pain necessary to heal. If you want
to avoid the pain, you will only waste your time and that of the counselor. There will be struggles to face in the
forms of grief, anger, guilt and shame, but you will not face them alone. Jesus will walk with you as will we.
Exposing the root pain begins the healing process. Walking through suffering with Christ leads to the treasures
of faith, hope, and maturity. (Ru. 5:1-5; ,Jas. 1:2-4; lPe. 1:6-7)
3. THE DECISION TO FACE FEAR
Along with facing pain, you will also have to face what you are afraid of. It could be hidden sin that
makes you ashamed. It could be the fear of going through trauma again. Maybe you are afraid of being abandoned
and rejected. It could be the tear of facing the responsibility of being well. Whatever the source of the fear, it has
to be faced so that it is not the LORD of your life, but Jesus is. Fear cripples; facing it in Christ's Presence leads to
freedom. (Ps. 27:1, 56:3; Is. 41:10; Mk. 5:36; Jn. 14:27; 1 Ic. 1:3:6; 1.1 n. 4:18)
4. THE DECISION TO GIVE TIME
Emotional or spiritual healing for most does not happen overnight. There are no quick fixes or magic
bullets. You must have patience, and perseverance to allow the Holy Spirit time to heal you as He chooses. But,
He will not force progress faster than you are willing to embrace. SettIe in your heart the commitment to take
whatever time is necessary to let the LORD free you from what binds and afflicts. (Ps. 40:1-4)
5. THE DECISION TO WORK
Counseling and healing is hard work. You must decide to work at the process of
getting well, otherwise you will depend on others to do it for you. No one is going to fix your life in lieu of you. You
must choose to make the effort to do what the LORD asks of you to heal. (Php. 2:12-13)
6. THE DECISION NOT TO BLAME OTHERS
It is a chronic sin of men and women to blame others for their problems,
and failures. But to do so is often to hide behind a smoke screen and not take responsibility for one's growth and maturity.
Exposing sin, your own and that of other's against you, is a decision to live in the truth. Refusing to make other people
responsible for the choices we make honors God's call on us to "live as children of light." (Eph. 5:8)
7. THE DECISION TO TRUST
Underlying the decision to get well is the decision to trust God as you work through your problems. The Psalmist tells us that the "LORD'S unfailing
love surrounds the man or woman who trusts in him," (Ps. 32:10) and Isaiah tells us that "the one who trusts in him will never
be put to shame." (Is. 28:16) Dealing with deep-seated addictions, traumas and pain require that your trust in God be grounded
in the belief that He passionately loves you, and will see you through the struggle to be healed. In turn, you also have to trust
that we your counselors have your best interests in Christ.
8. THE DECISION TO EMBRACE THE TRUTH
lmplied in all of this is the decision to live in the truth at all
costs. Through the healing process, Jesus tells us that knowing the truth will set us free. (Jn. 8:32) ³The LORD
"delights in men who are truthful," (Pr. 12:22) and He "desires truth in the inner parts." (Ps. 51:6) The decision to
get well is the choice to know the truth about God, about yourself, and about others. You must decide to let the Holy Spirit lead you into the truth so that lies,
illusions, fantasies, and deceits can be brought to light, and their influence neutralized.
9. THE DECISION TO FORGIVE
In order to be healed and live the kind of life God has for you, He wants you to decide to
forgive those who have hurt, abused, betrayed, abandoned, offended and violated you. Obviously, this can only be done by His
grace, but you must choose to cooperate with the Holy Spirit in forgiving, It is essential to your getting better. Even if you
can only pray for the willingness to forgive, you have to decide to move in that direction. (Mt. 6:14, 18:21; Col. :3:1:3; Eph.
4:32) To forgive is to free yourself from the eliects of the sin against you, and to not condemn the persons who harmed you.
10. THE DECISION TO LIVE A NEW LIFE
It takes courage to live without old hurts and fears to hide behind.
You need to decide to discover what it means to live as one of God's treasured Beloved despite your brokenness.
You can see from the ten decisions that need to be made that counseling is not something to be entered into
lightly. The soul is complex in its make up, and when it is wounded by sin dedicated time and attention must be
given to its healing under the guidance of the Holy Spirit. If you are considering getting help for relational,
emotional, or spiritual problettts plaguing your life, take time to decide that you will, by God's grace, do what is
necessary to mature and be well in Christ.

The spring looks to be busy once again with all sorts of in ministry opportunities. Please pray for us
that we may glorify Christ Jesus in every word we speak and action we take in His Name.
In April, we will co-lead 3 retreats at the CFR: First Congregational Church. Unionville, CT, April 9-10; St. David's Episcopal
Church Men's retreat, April 16-17; CPC inquirer's retreat, April 25th.
On April 11th kit will preach at Christ Presbyterian Church in Springtield, MA. On April 17th, Kit will speak on the topic of
prayer to students from the University of Hartford at a Listening House retreat, a ministry of Rick and Mimi harden. On the 18th,
Kit and Tricia will return to Poquonock Community Church in Poquonock,
CT to teach a seminar on Intercessory prayer. Kit will also give the sermon that morning.
At the end of April, 22-23, Kit will travel again to Nashville, TN to work with the counseling and support staff of Grace
Ministries Tennessee. He and Ken Cope of CORE Resources will use the Playmaker Profile to teach them about their individual
giftcdness and how that effects their functioning as a team.
On April 26-28, Marti Scudder from tile Nashville area will come for a Learning to Listen retreat.
So far, May is fairly uncluttered in terms of retreats and events. On the 7th and 8th we will offer the third Listening to God as
a Gouple Seminar. There will be a CPC Work Day at the CFR, tile first weekend, as well. The month of June is wide open, but I am
sure that time will fill up as has been its habit.
Tricia and I continue to see a variety of men and women for counseling and spiritual direction. We seem to be ministering to an equal
number of people from CPC, our home church, and from a nunlber of different churches in the area.

Faith is "being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." (He. 12:1) In other words, living by faith is living
as if what God says is true, is really true even if we do not experience the impact of that truth in a
particular circumstance. It is living "by faith ann not by sight." (2Cor. 5:7) It is trusting "in the LORD with all your heart," and
leaning "not on your own understanding," (Pr. 3:5) of a problem or situation.
While the storm breaks all around you; while the heartbreak continues unabated; while the frustration grows; while the affliction worsens
with no end in sight, you stand firm, or press on as if God is "an ever-present help in trouble." (Ps. 46:1) He is, you see.
Another way to view it is that either your troubles and afflictions arc the Lord of your life, or Jesus is. If you resolve to live as
if Jesus really is LORD in spite of what you are facing, you choose life on the maw of death. You no longer are the victim or slave of
what befalls you. Another, more real reality guides your life, and YOU WILL BE FREE. That's the truth.

A Word From Tricia (really)

Reasons to Shout Praises to God!!!!
- He has given us a lull ministry schedule in the early spring
- God has anointed and increased our inner healing work, especially Tricia.
- He has brought financial increase this winter.
- Klesis is maturing gradually.
Reasons we ask you to pray for us:
- We would not grow weary by relying on our own strength in the struggle.
- He would bless with fruit the ministry opportunities we have coming in the spring.
- He would enable a smooth transition from our present living quarters to our new quarters in the CFR.
- Affordable health insurance for the McDermott's.
- Protection from the assaults of the adversary (marriage, finances, relationships, health, etc.)
- Excellent health for Eslie and Alyn; Dan's continued growth at Berklee College of Music in Boston.
- Increased anointing of discernment, wisdom,, and power of our counseling work.
- The LORD would guide Eslie as she thinks about which college to pick after next year.
- Increaded teaching/speaking opportunities in the spring and summer.
- A restful vacation for the McDermott family this summer.